Dark Revelations

Life is never how you expected it to be. After a few days, the news finally sinked in. The betrayal of someone whom I thought would never do such things, has finally registered in my brain. My body shivers slightly recalling your callous and cruel behaviour towards me, as I sat down watching the scene unfold before my eyes. There was nothing I could do as you went away laughing and leaving me there shocked, surprised, hurt and lastly betrayed. The feelings of constant stabs to both my heart and my ego shook my entire being and as I sat there wondering, just what did I do and where have I gone wrong? Was I wrong to like you? Was I wrong to try again? Was I? Well apparently none of it matters to you now does it? What you have done has made me regret showing you the message. Maybe I shouldn't have shown you because I feel like such an idiot now. An idiot who fell for your lies big time. Feelings of utter disgust welled up inside whenever I see your picture and if only that picture wasn't digital, I would have smashed the whole photo frame up against the wall and wishing that somehow it was your head that got smashed in instead of the picture. Yes, you may think that I'm violent but remember it was you who made me have these violent thoughts.

Regrets were never my thing so be glad that you're the first to ever made it to the list of what I have regretted in my life. Once you're in that list, you shall never be looked upon the same again. Forever, you shall reside in my eyes as someone that utterly disgusts me and never would you ever capture my heart again. Unless of course you do an act of repentance such as slitting your main artery so that blood cannot flow through your body but instead spurts out of your body, draining you of the precious oxygen which your body desires. And I would just be standing there taking it all in and if I'm kind enough, I would call the ambulance just in time so you wouldn't die. If I am kind enough. Yes, I can be that evil. But it is through human deceptions and actions which causes another to be evil, to be thrown into the constant darkness which is evil. The line between good and evil is blurred even more when thoughts of murder and revenge comes up in your mind and it has always been fun to see another be tortured and just see them beg for mercy, for relief from the pain that binds them to the plane which we shall call reality.


It is not an act of revenge of which I typed out this post but rather the constant emotional battle which I have had within my body and my mind which compels me to lash out in this entry. Blood red is my favourite colour now because it shows the constant darkness that we humans battle against in our mind. Only a few mind submits to it and in doing so receives great power. Power in the sense of freedom. Freedom to do anything. Not being bound by ethics or morality. We do what we see fit and the end always justify its means. Life in this world is meant to be taken by those with greater power. Which is why I am plotting take yours.