If you have been an avid reader of my irregular updated blog then you will know that I have been feeling low this past week. Therefore, I made a poem/song playing off the mood I've been experiencing. Comment on it if you want:

Staring out the window, ashamed of myself
Wallowing in my sorrows while trying to make sense
You were right there beside me but you didn't even say hello
I tried to make you notice me but i guess i failed to do so

You were there, i was here
I tried my best to make it clear
You didn't heed to anything I said
But you just walked away

Leaving you is hard to bear
Cause in my heart i know i care
I still dream about you now
In this world of uncertainties

I'm tired of waiting, tired of being alone
Staring into your eyes, turned me to stone
You're like Medusa, with a pretty face
Loving the beast inside, it's only fate

So how is the poem/song? Good or bad? Up to you to decide.


Anyway, this past week has been absolute hellish for me despite the fact that school has been awesome. It's just that I feel like something is missing from my life? Perhaps it is a girlfriend since I HAVE been single for almost 3 years which is the longest period I have ever been single. Shocking to some I know. *Note the word, "some". Anyway, speaking about girlfriends, a part of me is dying for one but the other part is unwilling to cause I have had my heart broken once and it does not feel good therefore i would like to apologize to all the girls I played timer with. I was really childish then and had no right to mess around with your feelings. Okay, I think that's enough for relationship talk cause I don't really want to discuss much about it. Brings up bad memories.

Oh yeah, I am looking for musicians to play my songs. So if you guys know any good ones, refer them to me. Cause I really want to release my album by next year if possible. Anyway, I'm too tired now to type more so adios!! Oh, as a tribute to my cousin, I'm going to end my entry with a poem that is thought of on the spot. Here we go~

If you had loved me
You would never doubt a thing I do
If you had loved me
You would never have gone out with guys behind my back
If you had loved me
You would have put your trust in me
If you had loved me
I wouldn't have to shoot you dead

A bit moody I know. But who cares right?