Depressed

Sometimes I really wonder if what I have done is really enough. If i was good enough for that person. If I have what it takes to meet the expectations of that person.

But sometimes it's just hard trying to be somewhat that you're not. I can't just do everything all at once and expect it to be ok. I know I'm not perfect but you don't have to point out all my flaws bluntly. It's not like you're perfect also. I just can't stand it when someone just brings down my self-esteem like it meant nothing.

I don't know what to do anymore. It's all so stressing. A lot of things on my mind now like PP, drama, her. I can't afford anymore problems in my life. I'm afraid that I may be picking up a blade soon. I just....

Tears are falling on my keyboard now and I can't seem to type properly. I'm really, really very depressed now.