Emo? Kinda....

I feel kinda down today. I have a lot of thoughts swirling in my mind. Haven't had a chance to compose a new song. Too sad I guess.

I hate happy endings because they never happen in real life. I hate how they say if you study hard, you'll get good grades which lead to a stable job, a secure future. I just hate how people have different personalities. At one time they'll be all sweet and happy and the next they'll act as though you never existed.

I just hate how people in this day and age act. You never know who your real friends are and sometimes it just gets hard when you decide on whom to trust.

I hate how people come and go in your life. I hate how they look at me different just because I haven't seen them in long time. I just hate how they would judge me with their eyes and make stupid comments.

Sometimes I hate the fact that I'm still alive today.

But all that doesn't matter when I manage to see you first early in the morning. It doesn't matter at all. Somehow, you just make my day better. I don't know why. You just do. And I'm afraid that I may end up falling for you. I don't wanna be the one who's left standing trying to pick up all the broken pieces.

I think there's something wrong with my body. I thought the vomiting would stop once I started eating again. Guess I was wrong.