Empty thoughts of an average guy...

Why it is that all the girls that I have fallen in love so far be attached to some other guy? Am I really that unlucky to be in this situation? It’s not that I wanted this to happen but circumstances just made it that way. Should I just push away this feeling and regret not knowing what would happen if I didn’t? I don’t want to be known as a home-wrecker but at the same time, how can I just deny this feeling from this heart of mine? Maybe I’m just thinking too much. Maybe it’s just an infatuation being thought over too much. Yeah, I guess that’s the reason I suppose. But am I going to be okay and calmly tell myself that this is for the best and it was just wishful thinking on my part? That I don’t really deserve to have someone special since I broke so many hearts in my foolish past escapades? I don’t really believe in karma but somehow it’s starting to make sense to me. What goes around comes around. Kindness begets kindness. Meanness begets meanness. I guess that’s how the whole revolves, huh? It’s been years since I was ever involved in a relationship. Is it desperation that spurs on this foolish thinking of mine? Or is it simply because I’m a guy who falls in love easily? The results of both outcomes would definitely be simple in the sense that I don’t really deserve anyone in any way. Not while I still have this foolish mindset stuck in my head. Maybe it’s time for a fresh start, for a new and improved me. I just hope that that time will come soon, before it’s too late to make any changes. One of the principles that I believe in is that “life is like love, grab hold of it and never let go”. It’s like saying life is too short to just waste it away doing nothing for yourself so that when you’re old and reminisce, there wouldn’t be any point in your life that you would stop and say “I should have done something when I had the chance”. Cause by then, it would just be too late.

I know many of you who would be reading this post would say that I am stupid for thinking this way when I obviously have much to live for. In response however, life is fraught with unexpected certainties and you can never know when you would be able to see the sun shining again.