I never knew how easy it was to just hate a person even though you had spent a considerable amount of time trying to win her heart. Emotions are a strange thing. One moment you like something, the next would be completely opposite what you felt before. It's really peculiar how this could influence your perception on issues. Anyway, I just regretted wasting time on a girl who in the end just doesn't seem to be worth the effort. It just bugs me how I would even feel a thing for her in the first place anyway. Now, I just want to have as little contact with her as possible. If necessary, none at all. Cause she wasn't the girl I thought she would be. It really is disappointing when you find out that all this while, your efforts are wasted. Plus, it irks me how she is so insensitive and tactless which lead me to believe that the only person she cared about is the person staring at her back in the mirror.

On to other things, I had suddenly thought about my ex-girlfriend while trying to compose a song but in the end came up with a poem instead. So here it is:

You can't even begin to understand
The pain I felt when we're apart
You left me alone for another man
And now you're saying that I have no heart

All these rumors and all these lies
Were spread around like an awful surprise
I tried to dispel them with all my might
It was of no use no matter how hard I tried

Forgetting you was hard to do
When memories of you kept filtering through
Now I'm all alone, hurt and depressed
Smiling at the good times, crying at the rest

And I'm wishing, wishing for you to stay
Always hoping for it night and day
As the clouds rolled by in the sky
You know I'll be here through the night

Comments on this poem is of course welcome but I would highly appreciate it if you gave CONSTRUCTIVE comments.

So yeah, I know th poem is kind of sappy and all but what I typed above came straight from my heart and I hope that she reads it and know that I'll always be here with open arms and accept her with all my heart. No matter all the pain and hurt she has caused me. I'm willing to take a chance and be with her again.