I wish things were as simple as they were before. There's just a lot of things in my mind and feelings in my heart that I have to sort out. I just don't know what to do anymore. Life to me doesn't seem to be as wonderful as before. There's just a lot of complexities in my life. I know everyone go through it but to me, it just feels like I have hit an all time low in my life. I'm having a lot insecurities, a lot of questions that need to be answered. But the thing is, I'm scared of having them answered. I'm scared of finding out the truth. I'm scared of having things be much more complicated than before. I don't want to live this way. Living with sad and frustrated emotions swirling in my heart and thoughts.

If only she could understand my feelings then things would definitely look rosier for me. But i know that that is impossible cause in life, you can't have what you wish for. Sometimes I feel as though my soul is detached from my body and I am observing myself going through life from a distance. Chuckling at all the stupid mistakes I made in life. My soul feels like it's fading away from existence. Fading from the worldly constraints that is my body. I just don't know what to do anymore. Existence doesn't live up to its hype anymore. Everything should just fade away...