Man, I'm just so confused right now that I don't even know how to start off my post for today. Now listening to the song "How to save a life" by The Fray which is really contradictory to how I feel right about now. I just feel like taking a stab at that someone. Since this is an all-access website, I shall not divulge the identity of that person just in case I get sued by that person for privacy rights. Ha ha. Anyways, shit happens once in awhile in your life right? Yeah. It sucks when that happens to you but what the fuck, just suck it up and get on with your life right? You never know what the future holds in store for you. Even if at that point you might find it to be very unfair, you can't do anything about it. The event has already happened. Unless you have the power to travel back in time, there's nothing you can do about it except to just make preparations for the future and hope for the best.
So yeah, back to the story. I was in this "relationship" with someone which just passed its 1-month mark when all of a sudden things just started to go downhill. We don't talk, meet or do all those stuffs that couples are supposed to do. I don't even know what I did wrong. Although it may be a given that I haven't been in a relationship for a really long time, I really thought I was doing everything well. Apparently, that wasn't even enough. So yeah, today we decided to break everything off since the relationship wasn't going anywhere. Now that I look back on everything, I guess it was kinda my fault this happened. I guess the attraction that we felt for each other wasn't really any sort of chemistry but just lust. Pure lust in its raw form. One piece of advice kids, don't mistake lust for love. It would just be in vain. Just so you know, I'm not a playboy. Well, used to be but not anymore. I thought that it would be unfair to other girls. But looking back at all my relationships so far, it just sort of happened. You should check out my right column to understand what I mean. I guess it's just impossible for me to love others when the one I really love still haunts my heart.
Like they say, your first love will be the one you will never forget. I guess that's true since I still have feelings for that girl. Things were so much simpler then when we were young. Things just get complicated the more you grow older. That girl right now would probably never wonder how I really feel about her since she doesn't even have the chance to be seen around me. All thanks to her mother. What I don't get is why her mother is so judgmental towards me when I did her no wrong. I don't even have any ill-wishes for her daughter. I'm just so confused. Why would a mother, I repeat a mother, act that way? I thought that maybe she's just protective of her daughter. But then again, that can't be the only reason cause it's just so trivial.
Well, no matter what it is, I can't do anything about it anyway. Oh yeah, feel free to comment on the post yeah? You can do it through the tag board that I placed in the right column. So yeah,
YaN oUts!
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